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[creeksidealtarboy]

Already did it. Talked to Jesus, talked to the person I was mad at. Did a whole thing.

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[abrightboy]

How did you feel afterwards?

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[creeksidealtarboy]

[Still bright:]

Like shit, doc. I'd rather be angry.

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[abrightboy]

Why? What do you feel instead now? Sadness? Regret? Guilt?

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[creeksidealtarboy]

Regret. Let's go with that one.

I tried to make it better and it just made it fucking worse. So - I'd rather be angry and just hit people.

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[abrightboy]

Worse how? Did the other person not forgive you for being angry?

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[creeksidealtarboy]

They was angry too. But now they ain't angry and I still am.

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[abrightboy]

Because they understand, now, that they hurt you and they didn't make it right?

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[creeksidealtarboy]

Doesn't matter. I was the bigger asshole.

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[abrightboy]

How so?

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[creeksidealtarboy]

Just was. I said mean shit just to be mean.

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[abrightboy]

It’s probably a positive development that you feel bad about doing that. If you could resolve this right now any way you wanted, what would be the ideal outcome?

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[creeksidealtarboy]

Can't tell you that without telling you who I got beef with.

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[abrightboy]

Okay, well would you still like to have a positive relationship with this person?

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[creeksidealtarboy]

Yeah. I just...want some kinda apology from him that he fucked up and hurt me too, you know?

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[abrightboy]

That’s certainly fair. Have you told him so?

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[creeksidealtarboy]

Hell no. I ain't got no standing cuz I'm the fuck up.

Ain't my place to be mad about it.

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[abrightboy]

I know it feels that way. Did you hurt him on purpose?

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[creeksidealtarboy]

Everything I fucking do is on purpose, doc. C'mon.

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[abrightboy]

Okay, but did you take responsibility for that and apologize?

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[creeksidealtarboy]

Believe it or not, I fucking did.

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[abrightboy]

I do believe it. I can tell this is important to you, because you don't want to talk about it. Did he accept your apology?

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[creeksidealtarboy]

He said he did but that he's still upset. Which, yeah, I know, he's fucking allowed to be and all that bullshit. Just feels like shit, you know?

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[abrightboy]

It absolutely does; you're right. Do you know what he's still upset about? Is there anything you can do about it? Or is it just lingering hurt?

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[creeksidealtarboy]

[He groans.]

I can't do shit about it. Just make him happy and show him that I actually mean it.